This is me/ Take me as I am

It is I

2011-10-18T10:02:00.002-04:00

So I goggled my charity today, and I came across this blog that I haven't added to in years. I don't know if anyone is following, but i think its time to start writing again!!! I have much to say although I am such a different person from before... maybe not so much but I have definitely matured.

It's been a long time!

2008-05-05T16:34:00.003-04:00

OMG i have been so busy building Mariah Charities, that i haven't had a chance to blog. I wonder if anyone still reads this thing. Anyway, everything is going great, its a lot of work but it is so worth it. I'm getting ready for the school 2008 school year, and i am so excited. Currently there are 25 children and still counting. The website should be up by the end of the week. If you're interested in helping out, my contact info is below.

Mariah Charities
319 Lafayette Street #277
New York, NY 10012

Alicia@mariahcharities.org

Stay Focus

2008-02-16T16:20:00.004-05:00

Wah a gwan peoples!

I have a confession, i have not been as productive as i should have this week. I've been pretty sick and preoccupied with getting concert tickets for Mary J, and Jay Z. I'm still sick, but i was able to get those damn tickets.

Well, i sent out my flyers to two correctional facilities, i want to start off slow. Basicly because (1) I dont have any funding and (2) I dont have any employees/volunteers. I plan to go to staples to get some supplies so that i can be organized. I've already turned my bedroom into an office. I am so nervous, but soooo excited. This is better that graduating from college.

It's going to be tough, working, running the NP and going to school for my masters. Lord, give me strength.

Happy Happy Happy Birthday,to my bestest friend!!!! she turns 25 today.
Congratulations to BX Ryder on her wedding proposal!!!

So, the other day was Valentine's Day, i didnt have one because i'm single, but it didnt feel any different from the last four. What's that about?

Stay positive, focus and prosperous.

Donations- Please make checks payable to: Mariah Chartites
Mail to: Mariah Charities
319 Lafayette Street #277
New York, NY 10012

Pray thru it!

2008-02-12T12:48:00.000-05:00

Hello people,

I pray all is well.

So you know I'm working on my NP my launch date is 2/18, and i am so nervous.

I dont have much to say, but its the season of LENT and I hope everyone is praying and staying focus. Maybe things aren't going your way, and you're feeling a little down. Just hold fast it will be over soon.

Love, Peace, and Prosperity!

Mariah

2008-02-08T10:47:00.000-05:00

Hello,

Sorry for being away for so long, but i have been so busy working on my Non Profit Organization- Mariah Charities, in memory of my daughter Mariah Faith-Emmanuelle.

For some weird reason I always wanted to have my own NP, i started putting it into the universe about 4 years ago. I kept putting it off unitl i turned 30, but after the lose of my daughter, I've come to the conclusion that there is no better time than the present.

So, under Mariah Charities, my plan is to have several programs. The first is a program that will give aide to the children of parents who are incarcerated. I'm fortunately am not one of them, but most of my cousins are. Some of the these inmates would love to be a parent to their children, and this is where i come in. I will be that connecting factor.

There are two other programs that I am working on, which will give aide to other demographics. its a lot of work, but I want to give. I dont have much, but i am grateful for everything. I can only imagine what it feels like not to have.

Anyway, i will keep you guys posted. Besides i might need to vent more often, than usual, i might have to start a whole new blog.

If you guys feel like giving, you can send donations of any amount to:

Mariah Charities
319 Lafayette Street #277
New York, NY 10012

Hey, did you guys see last week episode of the Wire, i mean this show never seizes to amaze me.

Blogmania

2008-01-15T09:26:00.000-05:00

Hi,

So I've been bouncing around blogger, reading different blogs, and i must say that i am very impressed. I'm thinking about jazzin up my blog. Problem is i have no idea how to. meow

I'm thinking of signing up for netflix, i am always the last person to do something.

So, here's the deal i am officially single and loving it. This is always the best part for me, because now i can just spread my wings an fly. And that's exactly what i plan to do.

Everyone is all caught up in there own motion picture of life, and I am over playing an extra.

I want success and joy. That's all.

Another season of the Wire is back, and I am loving it. my only question is who the hell is Marlo, and where did he come from?

To my fellow bloggers thanx for the comments.

How do i bulid up traffic?

I was born a winner

2008-01-10T20:23:00.000-05:00

This has been a tumultuous month for me, hopefully it ends soon. Yet through it all i am trying my best to remain positive.

Again, I have no idea what to talk about.

Do anyone know anything about Zimbio?

Stay positive. Did you have a good laugh today? No, look at the video below, it is sure to do the trick.

I know I can, I know I can

2008-01-03T15:16:00.000-05:00

Hey,

I am trying to cure this disgusting disease I have called PROCRASTINATION, I have had it for as long as i can remember, and i just don't know how to get rid of it. It is the most annoying thing about myself. If i was into cutting this would provoke it. They say that you're suppose to make a checklist and go through each duty step by step. I have attempted this numerous times and i start off great but of course i never finish.

For instance i need to start doing Pilate's. I have the DVD already in the player all i have to do is press play, but nooo. Well, maybe that's just laziness, I'm also infected with that. The combination of the both is deadly. I really have to shake it off.

I read somewhere, that in order to figure out the amount of water you should drink daily, you have to divide your weight by two and that will give the amount of ounces. For example I weigh 160/2= 80. So I should drink 80 ounces of water which comes to 10 cups. Currently, i drink 3 cups, on a good day.

I haven't been reading my PMA book they way i should, that's why my motivational talks have died down, but I'm getting back focused, between the holidays, finals, and my men drama, i fell of track.

P.S.- To my good friend who held my hand throughout 2007, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. We hold the keys to the city. For those of you are trying to figure out "is it me?" No it is not you, its Gossip Boy.

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5,4,3,2,1 Happy New Year

2007-12-31T18:16:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year,

I hope we are all attaining our goals, and keeping positive.

Its been kind of hard to maintain my PMA with all the stuff Ive been going thru, but you are only strong as your hardest test, so on that note I am That Bitch.

A lonely bitch, but I'm alright with that. i wouldn't mind sittin down pon it, or balance pon it. So it goes.

I've been listening to MJB Cd for the last two weeks and i love it, I love everything MJB do. except for that no more drama BS.

So I think my Ex is gone for real for real this time, i wish him well and all the happiness in the world. On the other hand my boo thru the mirror is still acting crazy, i just don't get it. I appreciate the comments/advice, it seems as if every one is on the same page.

I hope the New Year brings all you wished for.

See you in the '08!

Can I get 2 ft. please!

2007-12-27T22:24:00.000-05:00

So, Ive been going back and forth on what to talk about on this blog and whether or not i should i should have a theme, well I'm still praying on it.

For, now lets talk about the men in the clubs who stay babysitting. you know exactly who I'm talking about. I am talking about the one who play you close the whole night, the one the every time you exhale he inhales. This happens to me EVERY TIME I go out. It never fails.

They stay, smelling my neck, whispering in my ear, caressing my back, as if we came to the club together. I go to the bathroom, he waiting outside for me. I mean what is that? why would you do this to someone? Why are you hugging me? why? why? why???

What if my man walked in, what would be your explanation?

You got my friends laughing at me.

If your a guy and you're reading this, and this sounds sort of, kind of, a little bit like you. Here is some advice. You have to follow the 8 minute rule. You have 8 minutes total, to introduce and sell yourself. If after 8 minutes, your prey doesn't seem interested , spin wit it, tek weh self and move unto the next. It is just that simple.

I feel a celebration coming!!!!

2007-12-05T15:14:00.000-05:00

Hola!

So if you didn't know, I'm telling you now, my birthday is coming. Oh Yes, its almost here. I just made reservations to go to the spa. Yea, that's what I'm doing, taking it real nice and easy. Maybe I'll go to AC and gamble, what the hell. I love to gamble its just something about that slot machine yelling at me Big Money! Yup that's what I'll do.

I have no idea what to talk about today. Oh, this is for the ladies; there is this girdle called spanx. this purchase is a must. it starts from right under the breast, and its shorts that goes midway down your thighs. All the stars use it including BEYONCE. My mom bought one and it works. It gets rid of all your love handles and lifts your booty. its really comfortable and no bulges! It starts at about $150, I'm not sure of the price because i am not advertising, but its a good buy.

I'm also doing some freelance head hunting (looking for jobs for the unemployed). If you or someone is in need of a job leave a comment or email me.

ok love ya.

Enough is Enough

2007-11-29T14:21:00.000-05:00

Thank the good Lord for today and everyday.

You know, when it rains it pours, but you have the keep the the faith if you want to see the sun shine again.

There are people in this world who are just out for your demise. You don't have to warrant it, you can be in your own world minding your business, and here they come fire blazing, just gunning for you. I say cut them where they stand, one time. I mean life is hard already, why you wanna fight me.

BX Ryder called me today, and you know she has a little situation she has to deal with, and here comes the devil in the form of a female of course to add flame to the fire. Just pure negativity. Exercising all of the seven negative emotions. With blatant perfidious statements. I told her she should have chopped her where she stood. I have a very low tolerance for negativity. I just can't. When you know someone has something negative to say, stop them before hand, to prohibit their bile from polluting your mind.

Please learn to love yourself, and stop forcing your self-hate on others.

To the she devil who attempted to hurt my BX Ryder, i will be sure to include her in my prayers, because she obviously needs it.

And we're back!

2007-11-28T13:45:00.000-05:00

I hope all is well, I've been extremely busy trying to make sense of life.

I've been trying his new thing, whenever someone upsets me, i deal with it and let it go. It has to be the most liberating thing ever. No more sleepless nights for me! This is so big for me, being that i am extremely sensitive, for no reason at all. If you met me you will never know, its something that has to be told, and i tell everyone. You have to be open with your inner circle. You must communicate.

I think that i am becoming anorexic, i am so afraid to eat. Every time i eat i feel so guilty, i just cant take it anymore.

I am really in a good state of mind, I'm really feeling myself, what you know bout that. i just feel light. I've really been focused on improving my PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) and its working wonders in my life. I mean thank you Jesus!.

I'm thinking of changing my wardrobe, but i cant want to spend the money. What happened to the days when being beautiful was suffice.

I love my best friend My Gal, i told her she was useless. LOL but i love her. for real for real.

But no, seriously i need to improve my wardrobe, everyone says that i am just plain, i thought i was classic.

Sometimes you have to ask others for their opinion, in order to take stock of yourself. You should be open to constructive criticism.

I stopped using the patch, so i should be around for another couple of years. i shouldn't of started it in the first place, but it was an act of liberty. I'll explain later.

Did you know my favorite word is Alleluia

Remember to Smile!

P.S. Why don't married men act married?

In a rush

2007-11-20T16:31:00.000-05:00

Hi Guys,

I've been busy all day, but i still made time for you guys. I hope you smiled at least once today, and if you did hold on to that thought and let take you through the rest of the day.

Thanks to those who are leaving comments, I wish the rest of you would. I want to know who is out there. I want to hear your thoughts.

I have to go, i will make it up tomorrow i promise.

Loving you, is easy cuz you're beautiful

2007-11-19T09:27:00.000-05:00

I love me some him, I'll never love this way again. I love me some you, another man will never do.

Hello again, i hope you are all a step closer to attaining the goals you have set, I know I am. I also hope you are loving yourself the way you should. There is nothing more unattractive than a low self-esteem. I have come to the conclusion that all haters and spectators lack self love. This is very saddening to me, i mean come on. You put all this focus into loving some guy and totally forget about loving the most important person, YOU. It's like Mary said" how can i love somebody else, if i cant love myself enough to know when its time, time to let go. Wise up ladies! You probably wondering why i care if you love yourself, and the answer is i really don't, but i figure if you learn to love yourself then maybe you can stop hating on the few of us that do. Enough is enough.
There is a reason that you are a mate, a side kick, a ting. men can sense insecurity from a mile away, and they will prey. Take some time and look within. Figure out what type of vibe you are sending out. Fix yourself and stop eyeballing me. I know he told you were nothing, he called you fat, ugly, another dude wont do what he did, he even probably called you out your name. Do not give in, do not let him win. if you need someone to talk to seriously, leave me a comment and i will reach out to you.
I am not advertising on this blog, unless they pay me, but i spent all weekend listening to Alicia Keys new CD. I love it!

My gal who is the greatest publicist of all time is also an event coordinator link her at Myspace.com/lastingaffairs.

Kissing in the rain, is so romantic. Find someone to kiss in the rain before the year is up.

Friday night, just got paid

2007-11-16T12:56:00.000-05:00

I wasn't going to blog today, because i had no idea what i was going to talk about. BX Ryder suggested that i talk about her and her baby father drama, but i cant even want to. So I'll just say this to her, you are a terrific mom, so what you didn't pick the best person to have a child with, you still have a lot to be thankful for. Focus on that.

You know negative energy is contagious, and should be dismissed immediately. Whether you're the cause or someone else is, try your best to diffuse it as soon as possible. Keep your mind focus on whats important. Just ask yourself what is really important to you, what do you want today to bring. Be thankful for what you have, and whatever you don't, devise a plan to attain it. The world is yours.

What is wrong with men who don't know how to flirt. They make you feel so uneasy, right. Like you just wanna help them out, you start answering the question before they even ask. You know like hurry up and get to he point and ask about my man, so we can get this over with. And its the same thing all the time, like I'm gonna get a recorder and press play: "Monica, Brooklyn, I'm a Capricorn, yea I'm 23, i work and go to school, i really don't go out much, no i don't have any kids. YES i have a man, no you cant have my number, no i don't want yours, no i don't have any interest in being your friend, I'm acting like this because you are acting as if you didn't see me talking on the phone, reading my book, listening to my ipod, or just indulging my self in a
reminisce of last night.

P.S i just wanna thank the 84 people who have expressed an interest in me.

It also reigns in brooklyn

2007-11-15T11:24:00.000-05:00

So, ive been lacking a lot of energy, maybe its the patch killing me slowly, or maybe i just need to grow up and take some damn vitamins. I know its not man problems, i got 99 problems but a ni**a aint one. The majority of my mantras are from Jay Z, thats because i am a fan not a groupie. But if he approached and the lighting was right, it just might go down. Shout outs to My Gal, who is my best friend forever and ever, cause life in the ghetto is not easy, and i know my friend dem different from my enemy dem. Ya dig. I do not use the word "friend" lightly, and i will not give a definition, but i know one thing for sure, they shouldnt be sleeping with the same person you are sleeping with. Now, i know i'm a martian and all, but i think that rule should be universal.
Enough with all of that, the last thing i want is a bunch of dames reading my blog and co-signing when they know they was laid up with so and so man the the other night.
I do want to talk about real friends, good souled people who have your best interest at heart. If you ever have to second guess telling your friend something, i hate to say it, but that is not your friend. An associate maybe even a colleague. If your "friend ever approach you with following; " girl i saw your man with her last night and they were all hugged up and kissing and loving each other" that is not your friend. Put it this way, if i ever see My Gal fiancee hugged up with someone else, she dont ever have to worry about getting a call from me, because i'm going to handle that one time. You know all that give a girl your back and hot gal dont fight over man> MEOW.

The following are the list of my friends and if you are not listed then step your game up, and I'll see what i can do next time.

JC
My Gal
Man in the mirror
Dr. Solomon
BX Ryder
Mommy
Moocha
Brother
Nica
Uncle

shout outs to y'all for always being there on rainy days.

Today is Tuesday, right?

2007-11-13T14:00:00.000-05:00

So, i woke up in someone else's bed this morning, that's been happening a lot lately. And, i am not complaining because i have actually taking a liking to having a warm body next to me. Wait, wait, lets start this party right. I should start of by at least introducing myself, My name is whateva you want it to be, I will tell you my age, only in the attempt to help you understand me a little better; i am 23 yrs old. I live in NYC, Brooklyn to be exact. I am graduating with a BA in Economics, i am single and deeply in love with the boy thru the mirror. I seem to think i live a pretty simple life, but people seem to be impressed with me all time, whats that about. I have a lot to say but never it, so this will be my outlet. i hope you enjoy every little bit of me. I am in process of creating my own non-profit foundation and that scares the hell out of me. But, a punk is what i am not. I have lived a sheltered life out in the open, so nothing really surprises me i just act like it does. So, what shall we talk about, i know life.

P.S. i am a martian